I can’t help but get upset when I shop.
Sometimes its because I can never find anything, sometimes its because I see a thousand things I want, that work, but I just don’t have the money – but today I realized something… The “Plus Sizes” are divided from the “Normal Sizes”. And you’re probably going to read that and be like “Duh, Alyssa – why would they be any different?”
I’m sorry for the profanity, but what the FUCK is that?
If society isn’t already telling us that we have to kill ourselves and hurt ourselves to be skinny, we have to walk into department stores, in public and go into a segregated section of a store because “WE AREN’T NORMAL”. It makes me ASHAMED of myself, it makes me feel BAD about myself because I have to be seen buying different clothes than everyone else.
I preach about calling yourself beautiful, but sometimes its so hard to see that when the entire world is screaming at you telling you that you’re not. Why does the concept of a simple “Plus Sized Section” make me feel inadequate? Why can’t those clothes be deemed normal as well and be sold for the same prices in the same places?
Because society is constantly telling us we are not beautiful.
But I am so sick of that, so sick of the world TIPPING me OFF that I don’t work in this world, that I’m different, that these clothes are made for HUMAN BEINGS and aren’t MADE FOR ME because I’m bigger and that makes me SPECIAL, so special that I have my own place in a shopping mall deemed only for me and the other NON-HUMANS. I’m sorry, but that’s bullshit.
A big reason why I shop at specific stores is because I like the feel of them, the clothes give me a reason to feel beautiful and typically the people who work there are from all walks of life and no one is going to look down on me when a pair of floral pants make my ass look big.
Get on it, world.